We might not have had a lifetime together but we lived, we learnt and we loved a lot. The difference you have made to my life and the lives of our 4 kids is something no one and nothing can take away.You helped me find me again,you gave me my confidence back,taught me to stand up for myself and what i believed in and never let anyone walk all over me. We shared our Fears, our secrets , our hopes and dreams and we used them to build a happy family life. You taught our kids nothing in life is free, you want something you work for it and if you deserve it ... it will be yours. You worked hard and Partied hard, you kept your friends close and enemies closer. You loved your Family and friends and above all else you loved life. We had our ups and downs like anyone else but oh so many memories...things that will stay in my heart forever. The downs were the worst anyone should have to face but even then through all your struggles you gave me the strength to get through the days. No matter how bad things got you could always make me smile and i can only hope i did the same for you . You liked the simple things and taught me that material things mean nothing.. its the people you choose to hold close, those you choose to trust and those who no matter what you do will only ever see you for you ... thats what matters. Sat on the couch , coffee in one hand cigarette ;) in the other hour after hour of Mickey mouse or Henry Hugglemonster but you were always smiling. Sitting on the floor building Caravans out of lego or Multi story car parks with the boys or sat up till 3am drying the paint on Torrie's school project with a hair dryer. Screaming at the tv when hearts played away or Screaming at the ref when they played at home . Those are just some of the memories i will treasure and the way you will be remembered forever in my heart. The past few months brought a lot of conversations some good some hard but all worth every second i spent with you . I made you a promise that no matter what i wouldn't let you go , I didn't then and i wont now . I don't believe in Angels or Heaven or all that stuff but i do believe that your still watching over us and keeping us strong. On my lowest days i can feel you next to me , i can hear you singing in the shower and i can still smell your aftershave its the little things that keep me going. I probably told you every day how much i loved you but it still never felt like enough .. truth is there are no words. The strength i find to get through the days comes from you, you were one of a kind and i hope i can do you proud. A Husband , A father A hero . My soulmate ... in this life and the next Love Always Roo xx